Change

Suddenly, out of the blue I saw myself fighting against these things I feared, the ones I hated to see. Anyways, somehow I lost all the things that made the pain worth every single time it hurted, and all that was left where those awful thoughts and NIGHTMARES.
Guess what? I figured out a way to get rid of them...
I decided I didn't give a damn about ANYTHING or ANYONE.
and it worked perfectly, for a while. And life had never seemed so good as when I did not care at all.
Looking back, I KNOW I FUCKED UP SO BAD that I can't believe it (haha).
I was such an asshole...
I was luky, I had the chance to make it all right again. Or so I thought...
I now feel like shit, even though I did say hi when I saw your face again after all that time and all the pain I had.
Wait, this wasn't the way it's supposed to be told!
So I had that chance, I took it, said hi and you took my hand.
I can't quite describe in words the feeling that rushed my whole body as it happened, but I'm somehow sure you felt the same way.
The drugs, oh the drugs... Maybe it was them, but hey! isn't it love a drug itself? What's the problem with a little bit of extra sugar on you coffee?
So, where were we? Oh right, our hands, our feelings, and the drugs.
We did enjoy that feeling, didn't we? Huh, I thought I was tripping
Anyway, we kinda knew what would happen from that day on.
We both trhew everything away, said "fuck it", didn't care about anything and hell yeah we had the best of times! We're still having them, our story hasn't got a proper ending for it, we're what some people call "too cool" for it to end like any other story. Maybe ours hasn't got one at all! Guess what? Yeah, I love that.
So life... LIFE what to say about it? Have a fucking laugh at it, really do it. Have fun, enjoy the life you live, or make it enjoyable cause' mate, you're not special unless you make yourself special.
I'm not feeling like telling you about me anymore so yeah: au revoir
And remember this, not as a story nor as mine, or whoever's but as a guy who took this blank sheet of paper and drew all over it, erased the things he didn't like and made better whatever he wanted, cause that my friend, that's what life is all about.